The first strange thing was that I can't view my own blog here.  Why the hell is it? Even P could attach it, though the English words made her faint. And the second one was that I had been sleepy before the sun went down. How could it be? I ususally go to bed at 4am! May I haven't realized that I am facing a trouble but somehow I can predict and smell it. P has to discuss the process of the date with J and I don't know what guidance should I give her. And the most disgusting  fact is that I have a damn fucking cold right now and I don't wanna ruin my poor image by showing my running nose or something else in front of the most beloved one in my messed-up life. I try to be perfect as hard as I could.